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bismillah..

i cant sleep...  i've never been this stress before. i cried in my car on my way back from siemens and i still feel like crying now... i have chapped lips from dehydrating. i've skipped my lunch for 6 days in a row last week, glued on the computer doing my heavy loaded work. i've late night feierabend for everyday last week and going back to siemens early in the morning to avoid traffic jam. i worked on weekends too. i was really glued on the computer screen. not even drinking. i've had bodyaches since last week, due to the amount of time sitting without bewegung. what else can u do when the dateline is just in front of u but the workload are like gebirge..

can someone imagine, engineer without assistant engineer? project leader without a team? why would they call project leader if nothing to lead for? i am complaining. ich beschwere mich. if they know half of the team are always mobile  back and forth to germany, they should hire more since the team are never complete here. there is always lack of man power.


alhamdulillah, i'm a muslim, so i can ease my mind for at least  3 x 15 minutes for prayer. really, prayer is really a peaceful rest for a muslim..


if one day, the mosenergo power plant explode because of some wiring problem, dont blame me. i almost had juling eyes with all the wiring. and i even cancel my plan for tomorrow vacation with zamry... thanks for all the praises before, but i think dont think i'm ready to be a project leader, especially when u left me without any help from at least an ass eng.. and, i was only 4 months old, right? stick to the old plan, train me on tec4 as discussed during our interview.

so.. today i failed to handover the manufactrg docu... for my first project.. insyaAllah, i really2 hope i can make it by tomorrow.. i mean today as it is 3 am already..  then i can have a rest, and wash another gebirge of laundry, clean the house and cook something for my supporting husband. Allahumma yassir.. walaa tu'assir..