long way home

Salam,

long way home..

and thus it was. my journey has ended, alhamdulillah. 73 months & 9 days to the day, since i began my long journey for the sake of knowledge. i found myself looking at the familiar sight of bukit melawati. i am home :)

i hope one day i could visit bingen again. to see if that cherry tree is still there. and if staudt's house is still the same. and if the bus driver will greet everyone like they always do. and if the vineyard are all gone for housing estate. and to find the footsteps i left behind.

bingen had left me with too many experiences, that shaped me for who i am today. 6 years.. is about a quartal of my life. how do you pick up the thread of your old life?.. there are some things that time cannot mend.

nevermind about that. i just want to say these words for long: 'i am back'. here, at home, i have so much to enjoy, to be and to do. insyaAllah... :)

~~~~

ps: tgh demam teruk ni.. =_='

6 years, 1 month, 9 days

Salam

insyaAllah this is my last night in Germany. i still remember 6 years ago, when i first came in Frankfurt Airport. as i made my first step out of the airplane, i prayed that i will come back home successfully. thank you Allah for answering my prayer..

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Bingen am Rhein,

19.02.2011

03:00

end of my Bach. Elektrotechniker life :)

salam,

alhamdulillah, secara unofficial, sy dah merdeka dari Bach. Elektrotechnik ^^ sebenarnya dah lama nak tulis entry blog ttg ni, tp sgt2 xde masa.. so, ni tgh rehat, sy tulis sikit dulu :)

dec - 17 jan : 

study untuk Prog2.. lebih kurang sebulan lebih pulun untuk porg2. xde siapa tahu susahnya untuk lulus paper Herr Mengel ni. itu pun Omar (kawan moroko) dah marah2 sy sbb baru start study bulan dec. dia kata kena start sekurangnya 3 bulan awal. ye, sbb kali ni mündlicheprufung, maksudnya, peperiksaan oral sebagai peluang terakhir. kalau gagal, akan dibuang universiti, dan sistem uni kat jerman ni, mana2 student yang pernah dibuang uni, takkan diterima oleh mana2 uni di jerman. sebenarnya sy dah sgt fobia dengan prog2.. sy pernah gagal 6 kali dalam prog2 (mase Diplom & Bach). sy sgt takut dengan Herr Mengel (walaupun dia x garang pun).. kalau ternampak dia, cepat2 sembunyi belakang pintu, lari belakang tiang atau masuk kelas orang lain. menangis depan dia pun pernah, lepastu kena marah lg kenapa nangis. -_-' sy pernah rasa nak muntah mase belajar prog2 pd masa exam kali ke berape, sy pun xingat.. tapi alhamdulillah, Allah kuatkan hati sy untuk study sungguh2 kali ni dan Allah permudahkan juga untuk saya study. alhamdulillah.. walaupun agak terkilan xdapat membantu dan join Winter Camp Germany yg dah bertahun2 dinantikan untuk ada program tersendiri.. tapi alhamdulillah, Allah dah tentukan yang terbaik untuk segalanya :)

18 jan :

Mündliche Prufung Prog2. Alhamdulillah lulus pada kali ke 7 amik. bak kata thomas edison : "If I find 10,000 ways something won't work, I haven't failed. I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward". terima kasih untuk semua yang mendoakan & xputus2 beri semangat untuk jangan give up. alhamdulillah.. :)

19 jan - 3 feb:

pulun menyiapkan Bach.Arbeit (thesis). makan xtentu, tido 3-5 jam je, berapa hari skip makan, survive dengan minum air & kopi (bagi dadah sikit untuk bertenage.. hihi). plan nak hantar 4 feb, dah buat termin dgn cikgu 4 feb. tapi, xdapat siapkan... :(

4 - 7 feb:

cikgu greet dengan senyuman lebar. tp sy bagitau sy belum siap.. dia mcm terkejut, tp dia kata xpe, sbb due date sy lambat lagi sebenarnya, sy je yg nak hantar awal. dia cakap boleh hantar bila2 siap nanti. saya buat termin baru, nak hantar selasa depan, 8 feb. lepastu mcm biasa, xtido, xmakan siapkan BA.

8 feb:

hantar BA, tp sekali lagi senyuman cikgu pudar. dia kata, napa hantar dalam bekas CD, dia nak bekas DVD yg besar dan dia nak 2 keping. semuanya ada dalam prufungsordnung.. masa ni mmg sedih sgt2 sbb mengecewakan cikgu. memang geram kat diri sendiri, kenapa xbaca prufungsordnung baik2. selalunya saya baca prufungsordnung & siap2 semua benda, tp sy rs mmg sebab fatigue yg amat menyebabkan sy xbole fikir baik2. balik dari jumpa cikgu terus sy pergi ke mainz untuk pergi ke kedai alat komputer cari bekas DVD walaupun sy xsempat minum pun pagi tu. masa kat mainz sy hampir jatuh sbb xde tenaga. cepat2 pergi kedai ape2 yg dekat untuk beli air & roti untuk dapat tenage (walaupun xsuke roti, tp roti pd masa ni sgt berjase. oh, encik roti). dapat DVD, terus balik rumah, print format utk cover DVD. tiba2 adik2 sweet bingen & russelsheim buat tiramisu :) sumber glukose yg baik utk energy.

9 -11 feb: 

hantar BA, menunggu result BA dengan cemas & risau.. tapi kena buang perasaan tu sbb banyak benda kena buat. jadi, start mengemas & melelong barang sebelum kosongkan bilik. hari jumaat, 11 feb, alhamdulillah, cikgu email kata saya dah lulus BA. alhamdulillah, secara unofficial, sy dah  habis belajar di FH Bingen ^^

12 feb :

jumpa junior2 KBU yg baru sampai january lepas. seronok jumpa adik2 ni. kitorg jalan2 gi zoo köln. zoo kat germany ni rupanya sgt2 menarik. banyak binatang2 comel~ pastu binatang2 tu pun aktif bercakap2 antara diorg. mcm tengok national geography atau discovery channel plk ^^ lepastu kitorg tido umah junior, berbual2 dgn junior ttg permasaalahan, mcmn nak pilih uni, etc..

13-14 feb:

meeting dgn kak intan, huda, kak izfa & farah. rasa gembira semua bersemangat utk bergerak aktif, tp at the same time rasa sedih dah xdapat join lg aktiviti2 yg dibincangkan.. :( lepastu g Gelsenkirchen, esoknya gi Dortmund, kampung pertama kat germany. sangat2 rindu Dortmund. masih ingat lagi, zaman2 1st time dtg jemen. excited, semangat, gembira :) tula masa yg paling bes skali sebab belum ada masalah. pastu balik bingen, 6 jam perjalanan sbb ada verspätung. dalam train tu mmg sakit sgt2 kepala, rasanya sbb fatigue sgt2. xsempat lagi rehat sejak habis BA haritu dah jalan2.


'ala kulli haal, alhamdulillah... :) thankyou for Your guidance throughout the whole time in my life, my Lord.

huhu.. harini pun masih busy. sakit kepala & penat.. rasa ada banyak sgt benda nak tulis.. tp tggu dulu, banyak benda lain kena uruskan especially dengan JPA, insurans, letrik & bank. tarikh balik malaysia dah mohon, tp xsure dpt ke x, tunggu JPA reply.

rabbi yassir walaa tu'assir..

alhamdulillah.. segala puji hanya bagi Allah.. segala puji hanya bagi Allah..

terima kasih ya Allah, terima kasih ya Allah, terima kasih ya Allah..

permudahkanlah urusan2ku dimasa akan datang.. amin ya Rabb

:)